Thursday, December 4, 2014

I'm constantly needing a Routine Perspective Check-up


Who doesn’t need a healthy dose of that?!? 

It doesn’t change your reality, yet it pulls you away from the impact it’s having on you. 

It diffuses its effect.
It waters down its potency.

If you’re crammed in that small place, wishing you had more ‘room’ (physically or figuratively speaking)…then I think of my Robbie who just got released from a tiny hospital room after 117 days! That’s 4 months!!!

Day in. 

Day out. 

Her Aortic Stenosis, her pneumonia, her UTI’s, her ventilator and trying to wean her off, her muscles  starting  to atrophy because she wasn’t breathing on her own. Her having to get a new trache, then getting an infection in that area. Yeast infections in her mouth, and heart valve issues. 

She is finally home, sitting on the deck in the sunshine with a great big smile! I don’t know about you, but that gives me perspective. One big helping of it! My ant problem becomes laughable. The car with no air conditioning that makes me cranky…yeah, so what! The broken washing machine that sends me to the Laundromat and ‘inconveniences’ my comfortable little life…get over it.


It’s a gift we receive by taking a look around. It comes freely when we aren’t so introspective, but by observing outside of ourselves. You may need to go looking for it, whether it be found in a Cancer Ward or a Soup Kitchen…but chances are you don’t have to go far. You won’t even need a Passport. It could be next door as your neighbor is carrying a huge load. Something unbearable.

Philippians 4:11-13 says, “Actually, I don’t have a sense of needing anything personally. I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I’m just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I’ve found the recipe for being happy, whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am.”

My brother’s fiancé Robbie, who I mentioned above, has since passed away. She went to her forever home in Heaven on December 20th of last year. (The ache in our hearts still remain.) With all of the difficulties she endured in her earthly body (ones I would never pretend to even come close to fathoming), she did it with such grace and humility. She was a visual reminder to “have no confidence in the flesh” as Philippians 3:4 instructs. I thank God for the privilege of learning from such a selfless soul…lessons I will continue to try and apply in my own human weakness. She was a gift, and with her favorite Christmas Holiday coming up, I will continue to unwrap all of the lessons she has given me since she entered my life. Can’t wait to see you again my sweet sister!  In the blink of an eye!


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